I applied for a government job because my father wanted me to, but I told him I’m not ready yet (you really need to be prepared tho coz its a lifetime commitment and I was thinking to go to law school) But he’s a pushy so yeah, I applied. Yesterday the list was released for initial interview. And my name wasn’t there. Deep inside me, I feel relieved and the same time I feel low. I waited 4 months and I did a lot of effort for that 4 month long just to get ready for this job. I know I told my papa that I’m not yet ready but I also did my best because I don’t want to let him down.
Earlier this morning, my father came to my room and told me not to feel discourage and asked me if I’m mad at him because he’s a little pushy. But I told him I am not mad.
He even said sorry.
Damn, it was the first time i heard my father utter those words.
The moment he left, I started crying.
Just fuck these jobs. They made you question your worth and capabilities. But I won’t give up!



